Being watched

Days are busy here. We’re thankful to be in the full swing of fall, with all the activity it brings. We are also thankful to now officially be “Missionary Disciples” with World Gospel Mission. We will post more details about that in the very near future!

Today I just wanted to ponder for a second what it means to be a follower of Christ in the world we live in. I have been studying Romans, and the first few chapters deal a lot with outer appearances and what they really mean. There is a lot of emphasis on the heart, and on our motives and actions lining up with what we say we know and believe.

In becoming a missionary, I feel like our family has shifted a bit into a place where we are “watched” more closely by people around us. It’s a little weird, I admit. I think if I were left to my own instincts I’d just be content to be in the background of life. But God has different plans! I am so thankful for the community and friendships that are growing through this adventure, but I do get uncomfortable when anyone says I’m a “hero” or they have no idea how I could take all my kids to Africa…again. Becoming missionaries definitely doesn’t make us super Christians. I am just like anyone else, with fears, doubts, and failures. Every day. I am a sinner in need of a Savior.

But I guess that’s where it hit me. Even if we don’t seek it out, there is a platform for Christians in these days. All of us. How do we stand for Truth, how to we respond to tragedy, how do we bring honor to God’s name among people who are desperate, people who do not know Him or maybe don’t even see a need for Him? Four words came to my mind as I thought about this in recent days. Love. Listen. Pray. Provide.

First, I think we have to love. We love because God first loved us. That is the heart of the gospel. God loved us so he gave (John 3:16)…his Son came to die the death that we deserve, in order to give us Life. It’s upside down. So, because of His love, even when we are wronged or hurt in the worst of ways, we can and should choose to love. Then we listen. Being a better listener is something God is really working on in me. It began in Kenya, I think, when I was faced with many situations where I just did not know what I should do to help someone. It always began with listening to their story. And I had to listen closely because often it involved some very broken English! I’m learning that giving a listening ear to someone in need is often a huge gift, and maybe it’s even just the catalyst they need to be reminded that God sees them, and he wants them to know he listens too. It takes time, and sometimes a bit of sacrifice, but it’s good to listen.

A third thing that God brought to my mind in regards to being His name-bearer on this earth is to pray. Pretty obvious. But do we really do it? I know I have been convicted many times, thinking I know I said I’d pray for that person but did I really do it? It’s helped me to sometimes just be bold enough (though it sure pulls me out of my comfort zone) to stop and pray with and for that person right then if the oppportunity arises.

Lastly, we provide. How do we know how to help someone? How to provide what they really need? I don’t know the answer to that. I’m learning and will continue to learn. But I pray that I would be authentic, not impulsive. That I would follow the Holy Spirit’s lead. He is not in a rush. He will show us what truly matters and when. And I pray that anytime I provide a physical or tangible need of some kind for someone that it would only be from a pure heart and motives.

Everything we do matters. Whether we see the effects now or a long time from now. I pray I would be faithful. May we all be faithful. He is faithful.

 

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Race against time…please pray

 

It’s difficult to believe that we have been in Kenya nearly 5 months now. It highlights how challenging it can be to mark the passing of time in our everyday lives. We try to increase our awareness by remembering birthdays, anniversaries and holidays while the years march on. When I look at pictures of my children only a few years ago, though, I am keenly aware of how the years slip by at lightning speed.

      

Living outside of my “everyday life” for the last 5 months has really done a number on my perception of time. One day I feel like time is moving at a snail’s pace, while the next I can’t believe how much time has passed. There is one way, though, of marking the passage of time here that keeps me from forgetting time’s relentless march forward. His name is Samuel.*

I met him in my second week working here, which also happened to be the day after his 16th birthday. He seems like a tall, quiet young man. I say “seems” because I have never seen him stand nor heard him talk. He has a condition know as Guillain Barre Syndrome, or GBS. We don’t really know why it happens; perhaps it is a virus or medication or something else, but the immune system starts attacking its own nerve cells. It starts with a little weakness in the hands and feet, and then the weakness spreads upward toward the vital muscles that help you breathe. This is about the time in the process when we met Samuel. Within 12 hours of his admission, we had to put a tube through his mouth and into his lungs so that a machine could do the work that his respiratory muscles could no longer do.

And then we waited. And waited. And waited.

We know that most people with this condition eventually recover, sometimes even completely, so we waited. We rejoiced when he could shrug his shoulder, we groaned when his skin began to break down from constant pressure over his bony frame. We celebrated when his thumb gave the slightest twitch, and we vigilantly treated every fever or indication of infection. Then it happened.

We were finally able to turn off the machine and he could breathe on his own! 3 months on the ventilator, and he could finally be wheeled out of the intensive care unit to bask in the sun (which happens to be one of the favorite things for kids to do in the hospital here). His recovery really seemed to be progressing well, and we were starting to think about getting him home. Then the fever came back.

Seemingly out of nowhere, he could no longer support his own breathing and we had to put him back on the ventilator. The new extra sound we heard when we listened to his heart filled us with dread. And when we received the results from the echocardiogram (heart ultrasound), our worst fears were confirmed. Samuel had developed bacterial endocarditis, an infection of the valves within the heart that allow the blood to flow forward and not backward. This would be bad enough, but it was even worse than we could have imagined. The bacteria had actually eaten a hole in one of the valves. Now every time his heart beat, some of the blood went forward and some of it went back into the lungs. As one visiting cardiologist put it, “this is not compatible with life” for very long. The clock was ticking.

The race to get Samuel off the ventilator and strong enough for surgery had begun. Now nearly 2 months later, it seems this is a race we cannot win. His muscles were slowly getting stronger, but the amount of work his lungs have to do is simply too much for his feeble new-found strength to overcome. And the clock keeps ticking.

Desperate times call for desperate measures. Actually, is anything desperate in the Lord’s hands? Of course the answer to that is “No.” Lord willing, though, Samuel will have surgery next week to repair his broken heart. God has placed a faithful, gifted surgeon here who is willing to take a risk on a patient that most would consider too sick for surgery. This is where you come in to the story.

“The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working” ~James 5:16

None of us on our own deserve to be called righteous, but if we trust in Christ, we are credited with His perfect righteousness (2 Cor 5:21). Please pray!

Pray that the surgery will happen. Pray that God will guide the surgeon’s hands and that the surgery will go well. Pray that Samuel will have a full recovery from the surgery and from the GBS. But the clock is also ticking for another reason. Samuel and his family are Muslim. As was true for all of us who are now alive in Christ, their spiritual hearts are broken and in need of repair by the great Physician. Samuel has heard the good news of the Gospel many times from different people during his 5 months in the hospital. Pray that God will grant Him faith and grace for eternal life… true life (Eph 2:8-9). May God use His life to reach the hearts of people we could never reach.  As He promised… for our good and His glory! (Rom 8:28)

*Samuel’s name was changed for this post, for his protection. God knows his name.

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The reason we’re here

Sorry I haven’t updated in a while. We’ve been a bit busy…with a newborn! Baby Melanie stepped into our lives a little over 2 weeks ago. She is a sweet little almost 1 month old now (we think) who was sadly abandoned by her parents. Her little life is a miracle, as she was found on the side of the road wrapped in blankets, probably only a couple of days old. After a short stay at the hospital to make sure she was healthy and strong, we offered to keep her here with us for a while until she is placed in a baby center (orphanage). It’s been such a blessing. The kids have really unified around her, which was definitely an answer to prayer. They have loved helping care for her and protect her. Though we know it will be a hard thing for us to see her go, we also know that this time we’ve been able to love and care for this little precious baby has been well worth it. In a weird (but not surprising) way I think the Lord is protecting my heart. I have been just overwhelmed with thankfulness with the moments we’ve been able to spend with Melanie. Snuggling a newborn, praying over her, and being able to provide for her needs for trust and security are such a blessing. But I know that she is not mine. She truly belongs to the Lord. I don’t know what her future will hold, but I feel confident that God is taking care of her and will continue to do so. Don’t get me wrong, I am tired and I do have overwhelming moments in this home with 7 children! But the Lord is truly sustaining us all. He is allowing me to see a glimpse of his heart in loving the unloved and caring for the abandoned soul. Don’t we all feel abandoned sometimes in this difficult world? That is why we have a loving Savior. He is so kind.

On that note, tomorrow is Easter. As we have been reading the Easter story as a family, and yesterday focused on Good Friday, one phrase in particular has hit me hard this year. “…and he yielded up his spirit.” Or in another translation, “…he allowed himself to die.” Jesus did not die because people killed him. No, he died because he surrendered. He surrendered to the Father’s will. He gave up his spirit and died so that we could be filled with his spirit and live! That is so amazing! And so incomprehensible really. In this world, and here at Tenwek, we are fighting so hard to save people’s lives. But Jesus willingly gave up his for each of us.

Maybe that’s what “take up your cross and follow me” truly means. Give up our lives, willingly laying down our rights and even our own desires. Surrendering them to the Lord fully, accepting what HE has to give and how He leads. And walking in the Hope and Victory that is ours when we believe that he truly did overcome death and the grave. His power is alive and at work in the lives of those who believe. I have to remind myself of that often, in my many failures and sins. But it is the truth. Praise the Lord that He shows us how to live surrendered lives. That is why we are here. That is why we are here.

Thank you for your continued prayers. Please pray for little Melanie and also for her mother and father, wherever they are.

We wish all of you a blessed Easter. He is Risen indeed!!

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